Suicide In Las Vega Essay, Research Paper
Suicide in Las Vega
Hell is expensive. This is my first thought as my plane lands in Las Vegas. The
Luxor hotel’s glass pyramid seems dangerously close to the runway’s edge, as do
its chocolate-and-gold sphinx and rows of shaved palms. I wonder if these rooms
tremble when jets land. Behind the Luxor are mountains kissed by dust the hue of
bone; to its left lies the Strip, where color is so bright it looks like it has
died, rotted, and come back as a poisonous flower.
I have been forewarned. First, I am told flying in at noon is “not the way to
enter Vegas.” Correct entry is at night. This way I would have the full
treatment of neon and glowing sky. As a child, I was taught not to buy into
anything at night. The spoiled, chipped, or dangerous could be easily disguised.
Yet here, in one of the fastest-growing cities in the United States, nighttime
is the appropriate time “to enter.”
Exiting is another matter. According to a recent cover story in Time, Las Vegas
has the highest per-capita suicide rate in the country. This coincides with its
enormous expansion, yet the most talked-about suicides — those of tourists
leaping from hotel balconies after losing everything they had — are dangerous
myths for a city poised to become America’s newest economic icon. In fact,
tourists taking their own lives surrounded by the glamour of the Strip comprise
only a small percentage of the fatalities. The bulk are those who moved here for
jobs, who live just beyond the lights. Eight times as many residents kill
themselves here as do visitors.
Second, I am told that in Las Vegas I will feel more alive. Anything can be had
here; this is the last place before the millennium where real money can be made.
An open season: anything goes; like America used to be. My friends in Los
Angeles, who seem to know such things, say forget about winning. This is the
town where you get to stub your cigarettes out in an egg, sunny side up, at four
o’clock in the morning — if you can remember what time it is, and you won’t –
and then get in your car and drive.
This will happen before I leave. But I will be driving just to clear my head of
the suicides and failures. On Paradise Road, near a white asphalt lot filled
with empty Boeing 707s, I will sit in my car watching early-morning business
flights descend into the starch of a Nevada dawn and I will suddenly see how Las
Vegas is our new mirror. Reflecting how things are going to be done. And who
will win or lose.
“There’s a small but steady amount of suicides we call ‘jumpers,’” states Sgt.
Bill Keeton of Metro Police. “They’re generally tourists. Some jump off an
overpass, even Hoover Dam, but casinos are first choice. Balconies. The hotels
wised up. Roofs stay locked.”
Las Vegas has other names for its fatalities. “Snowbirds” are retirees from the
Northwest who settle here or come to gamble their pension funds. “Downwinders”
are former Utah residents fighting cancer who lived downwind of radioactive
breezes in the fifties and sixties. Nuclear testing was only one desert valley
away; like the airport now, it was so close hotel rooms shook.
“It’s not necessarily gamblers,” Keeton goes on. “Just people who’ve planned one
last fling. We used to get a lot from Los Angeles. Now it’s people from all over
the world. We had a young man fly in from Ireland. On his immigration card, it
said he seemed either on drugs or depressed. He came here and went to a pistol
range, shot targets for a while, then took his gun into a bathroom and killed
himself. His family in Ireland kept asking, why Las Vegas? At that same pistol
range, a man from Japan shot himself in his shooting stall. It’s strange.”
I hear other stories. Of a wealthy man from Malibu, in the computer business,
who committed suicide with sleeping pills and a plastic bag, in a luxury suite
at the Mirage. His body was found next to the room’s baby grand piano. He had
bad relations with his ex-wife. There was a suicide note, resulting in a family
court battle. In Nevada, suicide notes can be interpreted as legal wills. As I
listen to the story, I realize it will be told again, and often, into the next
century. It is part of the city now, part of its dazzle.
“You have to remember, these are the visitors,” Keeton says. “Lots of people
move here and lose everything. They have to work their way out of town.”
Las Vegas considers itself a destination, an extremely lucrative word. It is a
destination summing up our desires for this decade. Like 1930s Hollywood and San
Francisco in the sixties, Las Vegas is building palaces that will not age well.
But the scar under the makeup is that people are moving here not for fame, or
even a communal sense of idealized youth, but only to survive.
Since I have been in Las Vegas I have not seen clouds. I am beginning to doubt
their existence. Driving east on Las Vegas Boulevard toward Nellis Air Force
Base, the sky gets bigger the poorer the road gets. I look up. It is a radiant,
pure aqua.
Trailer parks are haphazardly formed on desert lots without paved roads or
streetlights. Here, the desert nights must shimmer. Cement-block houses without
floors or windows have children running past Harley-Davidsons. I see dented
Cadillacs and Lincoln Continentals from the early seventies parked in front of
tents. These cars were our grandparents’ idea of elegance. Now they transport
families, sleep children in the backseat, with pots and pans in the trunk, and
if you can keep gas in the tank, they’ll get you across the country. I also
notice none of these cars have Nevada plates.
On the other side of town, Flamingo and Sahara roads splay out from the Strip
into the suburbs of Desert Shores, the Lakes, and Spring Valley. Here “family
lifestyle” communities are walled and gated and built on a massive scale. They
differ slightly in both size and price from “country club lifestyle” communities
like Los Prados and the Legacy, which have golf courses and ponds with bought,
recirculated water. Real estate in 1994 is no longer a bargain. It is now
comparable to Orange County or Scottsdale, Arizona. I reason the most original
thing Nevada has ever had is Las Vegas Boulevard. Respectability could mean a
small death to Las Vegas.
“Not so,” argues Mark Moreno, a lawyer and longtime Las Vegas resident. “The
position of Las Vegas as a family-entertainment destination is best for gaming
right now. There are three men responsible for the new Las Vegas. Bill Bennett
from Circus Circus, Kirk Kerkorian with the mgm Grand, and Steve Wynn with the
Mirage.”
I imagine asking these three wise kings about the suicides in their hotels. The
suicides of their employees in tract apartments and trailer parks facing desert
mountains. The mgm Grand employs over eight thousand people on any given day.
Circus Circus owns the Luxor. Circus Circus is where I try my first slot machine.
The casino is a silvery pink outside, like foil wrapping for cheap candy. It is
a color children will remember, and they run through its gardens and circus
exhibits and play centers. Their parents gamble in the main casino. And I
wonder: who is responsible for the flip side of myth?
“Something’s missing here. I don’t know how to describe it. But something’s
wrong.”
In a Chinese restaurant on Flamingo, Allison, a stout young woman wearing
eyeliner to make her eyes look oriental, shuffles her weight from one leg to
another in front of my table. We are discussing Las Vegas. Why she came here.
“What’s missing?” I ask.
“I don’t know. I have two boys, one girl. We moved here for a fresh start, me
and the kids. No man at all. Everything’s cool. We got a nice condo we rent at
Rock Springs Vista. I tried for the Grand but it was already filled up, so I
work here. We like Lake Mead. And snow in the mountains. But the kids want to
move on. So do I.”
“Why?” My voice is low. Confiding. Allison walks over to an air-conditioning
unit hidden behind a carved gold panel and turns it up higher so we can both
hear only air. She begins to whisper.
“I just want to get the hell out of Las Vegas. Anywhere.” She pauses to pour my
lukewarm jasmine tea. “Here you hate the word money. I can’t save any money. The
city eats it up. Somehow, every quarter and nickel. I work steady, and where
does it go?”
It is over eighty-five degrees on the third day of March. The coroner’s office
is located in a dusty white cement-block building with candy-apple-red trim.
Inside, the friendly staff files everything there is to know about murder,
suicide, and death in Clark County, Nevada. Coroner Ron Flud’s office is filled
with trophies, plants, and photographs, not unlike a career counselor’s at a
small-town college. Flud clasps his hands, studying me, and begins.
“First, gambling suicides in Las Vegas are minimal. It’s one or two every ten
years. Residents form the highest core group. And it’s almost always from
alienation in a relationship. Or career. Las Vegas is not always what they
imagined.”
I think of Allison, working her way out of town. She is not alone. As a young
man, serial killer John Wayne Gacy worked his way out of Las Vegas by being a
pallbearer at over seventy-five funerals at a local mortuary. In his last
interview, Gacy remarked that being in prison was like “being in Las Vegas,
where you’re gambling and you don’t know what’s going on outside.”
I realize everyone even remotely connected to suicide here takes great pains to
assure me it does not happen from gambling. One does not kill the golden calf in
Clark County.
It is axiomatic that relationships disintegrate due to money problems. In Las
Vegas and its suburbs, a primary cause for personal financial stress is gambling.
Its influence is a perennial one, a perfume in full bloom. There are slot
machines in supermarkets in Green Valley and Hendersen, in gas stations right
off the freeway. It is easy to cash a paycheck at a “locals” casino like the
Silver Nugget, and get free drink tickets. This does not happen in a bank.
Even the language here, somewhere between cowboy and psychopath, has an
optimistic inflection, still entirely Old West, the subtext being that here you
can get something for nothing. This has always been a lie. People are moving to
Las Vegas at the rate of six thousand a month. They hear the words no taxes,
jobs, good weather. They have come to make money for a year, then leave. Many
wind up unable to make rent.
“There’s a sense of anonymity and transience here,” notes Flud. “If someone dies
and we have an address over two years old, we’ll have to question its accuracy.
That’s how often Las Vegans move.”
Statistics show the most popular form of self-inflicted death in Las Vegas is by
gunshot using a handgun. Second is by hanging, third is by lethal ingestion of
drugs, often mixed with alcohol. In Ron Flud’s office, I see how creative
desperation can be. His files document death by carbon-monoxide inhalation,
cutting and stabbing wounds, jumping from heights, electrocution, a plastic bag
over the head, asphyxia from charcoal fire, self-immolation with gasoline,
deliberate car wrecks, cyanide and industrial poisons, self-set residential
fires, decapitation by train, even lethal amounts of dirt and grass forced into
the mouth, as achieved in a 1991 Las Vegas suicide.
“Being a gaming town, there’s a lot of Russian roulette. It’s a mistake to think
it’s a game. It’s a very successful form of suicide,” says Flud calmly.
This simple connection chills my arms. I think of a gun being passed around. A
trigger being pulled. Laughter. Deliberate prayers whispered as sprinklers water
brown desert lawns. I think how, downtown on Fremont, where white neon lights
never dim, there is no music; only silence. And in that silence, someone in the
city is lifting a loaded gun, emptying a prescription, or eating dirt until his
heart convulses.
The big suicide months are December and January. The group with the highest
suicide rate are those between the ages of 30 and 39. After the age of 50, the
numbers drop significantly. Nearly five times as many men kill themselves as do
women. systematic and severe depression is not unique to Las Vegas. The
difference here is the postcard in the background. Neon lights. The smell of
money. And the sense of a soul’s exhaustion, ready to pass through those neon
lights.
I realize Las Vegas is a silent city because all the action is inside. When we
kill ourselves, our plans succeed because they are secret. As a vindictive act,
suicide’s damage is permanent. And the question of why cannot be answered by
anyone alive.
“Why is the word,” Flud stresses quietly. “Why would a man and woman from
Southern California drive across the state line into Nevada, park just over the
border, and shoot themselves to death in the front seat of their car? Why would
a man in bed with a woman in a hotel on Fremont say something like, ‘I’m going
to teach you a lesson,’ and then blow his brains out on top of her? This woman
wound up severely traumatized. Why would someone do this?”
Because they’re working their way out of town, I think. Because something is
missing. In the late eighties, a young man shot himself to death at Lake Mead.
He had a tattoo of a heart on his chest, and that’s where he pointed the gun.
Underneath the tattoo was a date, freshly inked, on his skin. When his ex-wife
called the coroner to find out the details of his death, she gasped. The date
under his heart, shy of a close-range bullet wound, was the day, month, and year
their divorce became final.
Sometimes they are criminals, attracted to the glamour of not going back. Judge
John C. Fairbanks, 70, of New Hampshire, stole $1.8 million from his law clients,
disappeared on December 28, 1989, the day after he was indicted, and hid out for
years. On Thursday, March 24, 1994, Fairbanks checked into the mgm Grand under
an assumed name. On Sunday, he was found dead.
Judge John C. Fairbanks was not a casual man. He succeeded at everything he set
out to do. His suicide note, written to his son, was taped to the mirror. This
means Fairbanks got to take a good look at himself before he went.
This is almost myth. Fairbanks’s actions say to the desperate: I had the thrill
of stealing millions. I had the thrill of never going back. If you’re going to
check out, do it in the city of instant gratification, in the biggest hotel in
the world. Do it in Las Vegas.
The reality is that Judge John C. Fairbanks killed himself by putting a hotel
shoe bag over his head. The bag was plastic, with a drawstring, the kind
normally hung outside a room and filled with a pair of shoes that need polishing.
He used rubber bands around his neck to attach the bag securely. It was an off-
white color, and presumably he could see neither light nor dark as parts of the
bag slid into his mouth, toward his throat, and up into his nasal cavities.
Perhaps children were running down the hall outside his room as he suffocated.
Perhaps their parents were arguing over lost money in the casino. Judge John C.
Fairbanks died in silence. Alone.
It is 9:15 p.m. and the Congo Theater of the Sahara Hotel is dark. Kenny Kerr is
between shows of his female impersonation revue, Boy-lesque. I am ushered into a
beige dressing room. Kerr, sans wig but in flawless woman’s makeup, is smoking
Marlboro cigarettes in a glittery caftan.
“The first rule in Las Vegas: If you work here, don’t drink and don’t gamble.
And you have to have a sense of humor, and remember where you’ve come from.”
I explain to Kerr about the suicide rate in Las Vegas. He taps his nails on the
edge of his leather recliner and continues.
“I’m not surprised. It gets real heavy here. I’ve put friends through rehab for
drugs and alcohol. I do it because I care. See, honey, here, if the devil isn’t
staring you right in the face, then he’s just around the corner.”
Little Lil, the show’s three-hundred-fifty-pound comedy drag, agrees with Kerr.
“I got lots of stories on the devil in Las Vegas. I helped a friend once who
lost everything in a casino. House, bank account, car, the works. He was high as
a kite on the Flamingo Overpass, ready to jump. I got him down.”
I drive to the Flamingo Overpass. The lights of Las Vegas are a fuzzy blue;