As soon as everyone found out what happened, I became a morbid type of celebrity. I couldn’t walk ten feet without someone asking me if I was okay. How was I supposed to answer that? No one wants to hear if you’re not okay. I wanted to say, “Well, I’m here, aren’t I? Kenny isn’t here. Who do you think is the one who isn’t okay?”
I am no longer so na?ve. I try not to take things for granted. I will never commit suicide. I could never put anyone through that. It was a life changing experience. I don’t know if Kenny were to suddenly come back from beyond if we would even be friends. I have changed so profoundly since that day that I am a new person.
I hope wherever Kenny is, he is happy.
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